SPOOKY STORIES Vol. 1

As you may know already I have taken some time off to better deal with personal challenges, and while I foresee that this stagnation may well become something regular for the time being, I do not come empty handed. I bring you the thing for which I started this blog, no other than this month's overview according to the Tarot, and a brief take on The Law of Attraction per a dear friend's request. This subject will be addressed further on in appropriate depth, as what I present now is as much as I can do with my current schedule.

Additionally, because I have not enjoyed much brainpower to focus on our shared interests, I have put to written (typed?) words a few of my experiences with the occult for simple entertainment purposes. The timeline of these stories is not linear and they are ordered from the light-hearted to what I consider chilling situations. We will start soft.

I.- THE SACRIFICE:

>have occultist friend

>very lonely occultist friend

>he will conjure up a gf!

>I agree to help

>announces it will be thru blood

>not so keen now but listen anyway

>his parents live in farm

>he will buy baby goat from neighbor farm

>he will murder it for Satan

>explain we do not do that in here

>calls me ignorant, doubles down on it

>abandon premises before I run dangerously low on patience

Pardon the interruption but, on top of all the good reasons not to involve yourself in this, do you really think anyone would impress a deity or such by killing something that resembles its own little nephew?

>lose contact for a month or so

>meet up again, be confident he did not do it

>he now has a gf

>says he worked

>shudder a little with the implication

>not sure what do

>but then he explains

>he bought a baby goat

>come Saturday he is ready 

>lock eyes with baby goat

>murderous intent vanishes

>now he is stuck with baby goat

>for a whole week

>clippity_clop.mp3 all day, every day

>cute gal appears in front of his door

>is neighbour below

>says she's been ringing doorbell

>that she cannot take the ruckus no more

>that she can hear someone in flat walking

>up and down in high heels 

>friend tries to explain it is not possible

>argument intensifies

>friend just shows her the goat

>poor woman almost faints, goat too cute

>friend makes up lies on the spot

>about how he rescued the goat

>how he's gon find it a home in parents' farm

>neighbor takes the bait and they date

>mfw even the Dark Lord has a sense of humor

They lasted long and the lil' goat lived happy ever after in some neighbouring farm as far as I know. That said avoid bloodletting in your practice, it holds little to no value if you are unwilling to master the core elements (willpower and detachment dichotomy and paradigm shift - more on that later - but until I get around doing that I earnestly recommend you read on the subject of "Chaos Magick" and Phil Hine's "Oven Ready Chaos"). It's called "Chaos Magick" because it is an eclectic system and not because of anything scary or evil about it, OK?

II.- THE STORM:

>just as title implies

>massive storm rolls over

>major blackout, no power in miles

>phone lines go silent, no bars in mobile

>hardest moment of my entire life, no WiFi

>wonder how long to first acts of cannibalism

>then I remember

>been a survivalist all along!

>I have a cache for just the occasion!

>whip out Bug Out Bag (look it up)

>under it lies a metal crate

>about six or seven boxes of candles

>feel proud

>I bought them on clearance after all!

>I am such a smart lad!

>then I understand why they were on sale

>they are black

>they are long and thin

>almost for fancy dinners

>they are cheap too, so reek when lit

>in living room now

>a dozen black candles here and there

>on bottles as I ran out of candle holders

>chuckle to myself

>imagine Satan himself bursting through door

>saying He came as soon as he could

>demanding to know what is the emergency

>cuz shit ton of candles, haha

>say "haha" myself

>as soon as I do power is back online

>living room lights up

>AC also turns on

>there is also no wind all of a sudden

>wonder if I just sold my soul by accident

Coincidentally enough it was also on a Black Friday or rather the local equivalent. And no, there is no such thing as being able to sell your soul, demonic (or otherwise, even angelic!) pacts are vastly different and not something you do out of your own volition. The loss of your soul is not literal but a figure of speech to imply that, for the duration of the pact, you will exclusively do as told by the entity you contract with or be punished by it, and the price is implicit with your desired goal.

It is not a transaction but rather a streamlined coaching process at breakneck speeds, and since it will remove all distractions until you achieve the purpose of the pact, it might lead to unexpected suffering. Pain (on a personal level) is after all the coin to purchase greatness and just as greatness it cannot be transferred to no one unless they are willing to make efforts that many others, understandably, shy away from it. In other more Hollywood-leaning words, think of it as The Cruel Tutelage of Pai Mei in Kill Bill vol. 2 rather than anything that appeared in Spawn. Your teacher is happy to pass down the mantle of master if you are willing to learn, it is one of those beautiful things that cannot be bought but earnt.

tl;dr demonic pacts are like weight loss programs and not a record deal.

III.- DEMONIC REVELATION:

>get into evocation

>gonna summon spirits and chat

>but before that I must be able to listen

>try a lot of methods and exercises

>understand the minutia of transcription

>there is no voice

>there is no conversation at all

>but a transfer of nonsensical thoughts at first

>followed by sudden knowledge on subject

>like having faint memory of a past lecture

>a lecture that never happened, but you were present

>only the right trance will do

>I must pursue this path at all costs!

>wake up at 03:00 AM

>make way to garden

>beautiful night, deafening silence

>no wind too

>drink in the harmony

>sit on chair and close eyes

>do nothing but listen own breath

>be attentive as expecting something to happen

>deliberately await as if promissed something too

>become one with surroundings, live the moment

>thoughts go silent too, no  more pondering 

>just endless existence

>then it happens

>a faint whisper grows

>it becomes louder like a hallway full of voices

>distant voices become more clear!

>I brace myself for it

>I refuse to open my eyes and miss the experience!

>fearlessly allow this abyss to overwhelm me!

>"Tee-hee! Just fuck me already!"

>open eyes confused

>wonder if I just summoned a succubus

>male replies in garbled voice

>no demons, no angels, not even a gnome

>just two drunk tourists

>trying to go at it under a palm tree

>right outside my home

I wish I was not so dumbfounded as to insinuate, loudly, that there are in fact only two serviceable holes and to pick one post-haste but I did not. I think I went a whole week without having sorcerous interests from the sheer disappointment. A Christian friend of mine, bless his heart, suggested I just get baptized already and save myself from further embarassment but I suspect he might not have been as serious as I expected him to be about it... After all he would be left without an ample source of entertainment (at my expense) had I embraced the Blood of the Lamb, don't you think?

As for spirit communication, some of you have asked/might ask that why do I not exploit this talent more often, especially if I claim to possess it. Well, it goes like this: 

[RANT INCOMING]

0.- It is not a talent but a skill, almost. 

Anyone will and can master it given not time but willingness, as it is not so much something you need to learn but rather develop and an intrinsical part of our nature. The closest thing I can compare it to is intermittent fasting or exercise, as in that you were not taught how to perform digestion or even how to circulate your blood, those things just happen for you and in a way by you (or by means of your biology). The only thing you are doing here is taking conscious advantage of the mechanism, such as inducing ketosis or going for a walk.

With that said I bid you to keep in mind that I am not special, it just happens that I am sharing a hobby so rare that you might be taking it out of proportion, ok?.

1.- The tl;dr is that it feels like experiencing a home invasion for just one number of the Powerball lotto.

Until refined spirit, communication follows a jarring process every time so it must be used sparsely. Even doing so invites bothersome, sometimes frightening, changes in your lifestyle that though they can be reversed? It is not very pleasant. I know how it sounds, as quite the convenient excuse to explain why you will not put such a claim to the test, but read on for a description of said process:

0) Before anything happens your mood might set off a bad experience.

1) It begins by relaxing yourself to enter trance.

2) Then you engage in psychodrama, a fancy term for make-believe.

- If you for one moment think this is silly or inappropriate, it fails.

- If you think that mispronouncing a word will ruin it? You ruin it.

- If you think that mispronouncing a word is okay? You keep it.

- If you think too highly of yourself you might just hit a dead end.

3) Once you attract the presence of the spirit you test it.

- You will know when a spirit is present. Changes in environment precede it.

- You do this still in your fantasy bubble.

- Spirit will reflect your thoughts back at you, you will receive impressions at first.

- Vague sensations of "I should do this or that".

4) Further inquire or the need for a complex answer make you reel.

- It will feel as an echo of your strongest emotional memory.

- Remember the wild swings during a breakup? Or striking out in anger? Like that but not.

- It takes less than a moment but feels as if you have gone through memories of a lifetime.

- You emerge with the data of your questions, but as a memory of it.

- As if you remembered a lecture from years ago.

- You remember the paraphrased contents of the lecture, but not the lecture itself.

- Cannot shake the fake nature of that artificial memory but it is there.

- Might take a lot more than one attempt if your question is complex.

5) Technical questions require enough previous knowledge from the querent.

- In other words, you will be inspired and quite probably go through a week or intense dreams/ideas.

- It is useless to ask about things you really have little understanding of.

- If you want for a transcript of Nikola Tesla's secret inventions you need to be very educated first.

- Rather than an answer it is going to be a quest spanning as much time as you can dedicate between ritual and normal life.

- Not saying it is impossible to ask that for which you are ignorant, only that there will not be short answers at all.

6) Spirits will often use concepts and images already familiar to you that will flash in insinuating manner in your mind before words can be made out. This happens always even if you have developed an affinity (more on that later) but mostly out of our own natural anxiety. Imagine taking an oral test blindfolded. That much anxiety.

- Affinity is achieved not only by mutual liking between querent and spirit, but also ritual.

- Taking a long time between communication will erode affinity forcing you to start over.

- Does not mean the spirit will take offense, only that the process cannot be streamlined easily.

- Affinity is attained in order to produce exclusivity during communication, it is a form of focus.

- The more affinity the better the results.

- The better the results are the more you lose a sense of gravity.

- In other words, you may become an irresponsible individual obsessed with the occult and neglecting your duties.

7) Developing a bout of mystic psychosis is a possibility as the experience is rather unusual for most people and sometimes frightening even to experienced practitioners, as the basis of it is controlling your thoughts and emotions. If you feel wary of random strangers asking you to spare a cigarette then imagine when it is a bodiless entity, whose existence may predate that of mankind itself, and who's asking you nicely not to be afraid.

- Mystic psychosis is not so much a loss of touch with reality but the result of these wild notions and emotions.

- We tend to draw erroneous and megalomaniacal conclusions of them.

- Expected when they are such a trip that cannot be put in words unless experienced before.

- Especially when narcotic substances have had a hand in the first item on this list.

- Do not do drugs and engage in the occult, your ego will bloat with little to show other than little hygiene and money.

- It will suck if you end up in jail thinking you are Jesus, just saying. 

- A rule of thumb is that "just because it feels this way does not mean it is real".

- Think of the venom of the scorpion fish, it causes (scientific term).

- It switches your perception of heat around, what is cold feels hot and viceversa. The intensity too.

- Your hand in the oven feels like a blizzard. A midnight dip in the ocean feels like boiling alive.

- No matter how you feel under the influence of the venom? It is not real.

- Hard to remember when you really, REALLY find out magic is real and you end up thinking you are so much more special.

- It amounts to buying a skate board and claiming you were Henry Ford in a past life. Nonsensical but the mad are powerful.

8) There are consequences to spiritual contact beyond just becoming infatuated with this knowledge.

- Another rule of thumb is "to see is to be seen".

- You are not bringing the spirit from another dimension, just becoming receptive to its influence.

- It is like fine tuning a radio signal. 

- There aren't so much planes of existence and other worlds so much as they are coexisting layers.

- Much like the floors of a shopping mall. 

- Just because you shop for electronics does not mean the shoe wear section just collapsed out of existence.

- Attuning yourself means visiting the appropriate floor in the mall. Whoever is there will see you.

- Attunement is regulated by thought. Your giddiness to see more will make you always receptive.

- The nature of this knowledge is so shocking that most people will never come down of it from the excitement.

- That makes them shine brightly in a sea of predators.

- If you thought internet trolls were bad you are in for a ride.

- Much like with cyber bullying, most threats will mean the world for the inexperienced.

- This is why most people end up afraid and paranoid, fear makes the wolf bigger. Get angry and the wolf will vanish.

- No really, it is as simple, because the basis is "you get just what you think you deserve".

- As such you will get wild and realistic dreams, sometimes pleasant but confusing and surreal most of the time.

- Sometimes spirits will warn you about things that are real. Other times not.

- The worst is attracting the presence of dead people, whose are detrimental to us unless they transitioned.

- The transition is also known as the death of the ego, look it up for a rough idea.

- Most spirit possessions and bad experiences are attributed to dead people behaving like ghostly squatters and muggers.

- Most possessions are bouts of diminishing health and depression, with brief moments of loss of control.

- True possession is much different from what can be attributed through the science of psychiatry.

- Namely because it takes an act of strong will and/or sage to put an end to it.

- I sincerely wish upon the world that mental health issues could be solved as easily.

- It is especially bad for vulnerable people, namely the young, the old and the infirm.

- If you think you are possessed you need very little help, just bravery. 

- Does not hurt to ask for help, that too is an act of strength and let no one tell you against it!

- Remember the ending of the Babadook? It will be like that but with very little special effects and barely any budget.

- Spirit might actually be more afraid of you with your morning hair and ill-fitting pyjamas.

- Imagine being held at gunpoint for your money and making the guy leave by saying "nah I'm good, thanks tho!"

- That is exactly what you can achieve - it just takes being surreal and daring at the same time.

- I have experienced the complaints of a spirit that will be named not, giving me the name and address of someone who tarnished its reputation to a group of friends during a drunken bout. The spirit itself seemed inebriated itself too. Was it a test of faith? Did it expect me to call him out on this charade? To point out that a bodiless entity may in fact not be drunk? I do not know but it shattered the glamorous idea I had about this whole subject. We remain good friends to this day.

The tl;dr is that it is a shitshow every time, worth the risk undoubtedly, but not the cheaty shortcut we all expected for back then with our first copy of the Ars Goetia.

IV.- MANDRAKE

>wake up at 03:00 AM again

>undeterred by my past failure

>go into garden

>repeat enjoying the moment

>repeat drinking in the harmony

>relax

>only this time I leave my eyes opens

>not forcing my eyes

>just contemplate the scene

>timeless gaze like the Buddha

>focused but relax

>eternal but attentive

>that way of gazing

>just like watching a chick flick with your gal

>then it happens

>sight blurs as expected but new colors appear

>like blinking at a bright lamp, the afterimage

>like static rain vision problem (look it up)

>like those tacky rainbow knives

>neon green, electric purple, tinge of blue and metallic yellow

>shapes blur until unrecognisable

>become worried that I might have broken something

>rub eyes and everything is back to normal

>retry whole process again

>achieve serenity, achieve technicolor Hell again

>it is somewhat relaxing

>color fades back to normality a few times

>about to blink when I notice bulge in empty flower pot

>about the size of a tennis ball, black and featureless

>it gently moves like a rocking egg

>egg elevates and see it is attached to a small body

>looks like a plushie humanoid doll, all black

>it does not notice me or does not care

>takes its time to slip out of the flower pot

>walks into nearby rose bush as if it was not there

I was not afraid for even a second and not in the least due to our size disparity. The creature reminded me of medieval depiction of mandrake roots albeit without any flowery ornament on its head, and it moved in such a gentle nature that it inspired sympathy and approval from me, much like watching a puppy or a kitten being itself. I felt unthreatened by it and it probably felt that from me, or perhaps I was able to peek into its side of reality unnoticed, I am not sure. All I can tell for certain is that it felt not as an elemental spirit (spirits that maintain physical reality more or less), but I did not ask any questions either.

That is all for now folks, more to come as always!